can i stop seeing bullshits flying over me??

haix..

u said u r not gd enuff for me..
is all bullshit..
i feel the pain again..
now i noe..u live better without me..
now i noe.. i m not important...or rather..unnecessary...
now i noe.."motivation from me" is just another bullshit out from ur mouth...
i felt so silly and foolish and stupid to believe u 4mths ago..to believe u r my last one..to believe u are the only one..to believe u r different from other...to give u all my trust..to think that u r sincere and realli love me...is realli all bullshit..
its hard to erase everything..it is hard...
its not like a video tape that can re-write it and record another movie...
i dun even noe it is a dream or a nightmare..
i felt so..

cant describe my feelings now..

cant believe i m writing this in my office with tears dropping and gabby's console..
gab,it is hard to move on..