it is hard to maintain a relationship - just like flying kite.

you have to pull at the right time, let go at the right time..

it is not easy. you will be afraid of string snapping off, hence u keep letting go and let it fly far and high. by that time, you are unable to pull it back. it will fly real far.
on the other hand, if you pull too much..although it is near you, if the string snap off, it will be gone too.

difficult isn't it?

hate empty promises or false hope.

if you cannot do it just dont say it.
it just disappoint me..seriously.

sometimes i wonder if i should treat someone good or bad.
i really wonder..

sometimes i just hate that im pisces. perhaps many will say im just too into horoscopes but honestly i felt that it is really quite accurate for my case.
im emo, i can fall in love as fast as lightning, i can adapt well and i love to daydream.

sometimes i dont even understand myself. i can be blindly in love and be damn foolish when im in love. but once im not, i can be as cold as ice. very extreme uh?
i can cry a river when i broke off but after few days, i can just simply fall in love with another guy. well, many dont understand why i can do that. neither do i.

sometimes when you dont even understand yourself, it is hard for you to maintain a relationship. i really wish i could have a relationship which could last for at least a year. it sounds stupid, but i find it difficult. its just me. i guess i asked for too much. but seriously, i think that i treated most of my ex bfs quite well. hmm....my mom said my expectation is quite high which i guessed i have to agree....HAHAHAHA! for me, i guess the most important thing is that my family likes him, it just makes things easier. if my parents hate him, even how much i love him, this obstacle is just too difficult to overcome..

dont ask me what is my ideal bf.
i couldn't answer.
can you?

WEEHEEE!!


finally changed my blogskin!
=D

hmm..something to ponder..
am i the one having issues?
i just cant stop being insecure and this bothers me alot. seriously.

been through so much..i still cannot figure out what i really want. im serious. i really dont know.
someone who can accompany me?
someone who can lead and dominate?
matured?
fun-loving?
it is just difficult to figure out.
maybe im just too picky. when i tried not to be, for example, towards that bastard? it turns out he took me for granted. fuck. what am i suppose to do?.
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*WARNING* PMS-ing in process.