ytd send off jinle...
really she bu de her so much..
i really hate departure..
or rather i am sensitive to airport...

hais..


after that went to dadi house to play mj..
play play play..
den finish playing they start drinking...
ok lo..i also drink..
den in the end we all like emo..
talk about r/s stuff...hahaha..
zhiming is a o grad,his gf is a uni grad..he broke with her..
tts y he broke with her..
but in the end they patched back becuz he still love her...
finally i understand or rather i accept the reason which i used to find it invalid..


i guess life is like this..
feelings is feelings...reality is reality..
2 different things..
i guess..
being alone is better..
at least i wont have headaches...

ytd went pooling with gor zihao and peishan...
seeing zihao and peishan together so loving..
kinda envy and jealous..
i miss those feeling whereby i can hug and hold someone dearly walking down the streets..
suddenly all the memories flash back...
hais...

i going to send jinle off with same name and minmin..
gonna miss her so much...
hais..
ltr going to take 24 to changi airport..
it makes me think alot..
i miss the time going to changi and back to amk..
sometimes i just hate that i m a pisces..
emotional freak..

just read my brother blog..
he wrote " if time could go back, i will love her more"
when i saw this sentence..my tears just drop..
yes..if time could go back..i will love him more too..
i will not be unreasonable..
i will not be controlling..
i will give him all my support and motivation..
but time just cant go back..
no matter how hard i pray..

it still hurts.
i might be playing around..
i might look happy..
but deep down..
it still hurts..
it is still haunting me..