其实很多时候我真的觉得难道我的命就那么苦吗?

是， 我嫁人了。
但老实说，我开始后悔了。
爱上一个不该爱的人。

一个爱自己多个爱我的人
一个不会为了我而放弃一切的人
一个不会体谅我的人
一个不明白事理的人

我不能说他不爱我。
他爱。
但不够爱。
我爸爸过世了，他的爸爸妹妹一句关心的话也没有。还开开心心的去台湾玩。对吗?我根本就没办法原谅他们，他却不明白。到头来变成一切都是我的错。过分吗?

我真的受够了。

那天和老同学们相约，说起好多好多以往的事，突然之间，好多感触。那天，猪竟然出门来和我们相约，好难得啊。其实，有很多话想跟他说。
一，谢谢他的出现。我指的是在我生命中出现。
二，谢谢他当时对我的爱。三年真的很长。
三，谢谢他当时二十四小时随时听我诉苦，陪我聊天说心事。
四，对不起。当年的我真的不够成熟，应该做了或说了很多伤人的事。
五，我真的希望他能够找到一个懂得珍惜他的好女生，一个好老婆。

很多时候，我会怨上天让我们相遇太早。当时的我太年轻，不知道什么才是真正的好，有个怎么好的人在身边却不懂得珍惜。有时候，我又感谢上天安排我们相遇，至少曾经有一个人那么深爱我。其实让我佩服的是，当时的我一直换男朋友，但，他还是默默的关心我。
那么多年了，我也起起落落不少。我才发现我要的是一个很爱我，很让我，很疼我，脾气超好的男人。浪漫不浪漫，有钱不有钱，帅不帅已经不重要了。听起来很像猪哦？是啊，的确完全符合，但是我们相遇太早。我遇到一个跟猪一样完全符合条件的男人-他就是我现任男朋友。
上天在开玩笑吗？再一次安排这样的人在我身边。但是我能确认，这一次我绝不轻易放手，我要好好珍惜。

How many chance do I need to give. How much time do I have..

Been in taiwan for 3 days already.
shop like no tmr..LOL..

but one thing is amiss - my dalang.
i really miss u dalang.
i want many hugs and kisses!

Yup. I am attached once again.

wouldn't say much this time.
but to be honest..so far so good..
(:

he just posted this one my wall and im seriously amazed. because this is a post which i wanted to post last time but did not. it totally speaks about me. thanks dalang. you know what i want.

做我的男朋友，辛苦吗？[B]

做我男朋友不需要很有钱,够用就好了;
出手用不着很大方,肯为我花钱就好了;

不需要你多会说甜言蜜语,在我最无助的时候,可以给肩膀靠就好了;
不需要有多浪漫,晚上陪我到处走走逛逛聊聊天就足够了;

如果我们会走在一起,证明我们是相爱的.
我的要求不是很高,去逛街的时候,你会拉着我的手,看到熟人,能够和对方介绍"这是我女朋友"
当我们不在一起的时候,会常打电话,发信息给我.证明你有在想我,讲电话的时候,要多说话,我喜欢听到你讲,那样感觉你就在我身边,不许先挂我电话,我讨厌听到"嘟'嘟" 声.

不要说你很忙,那样只是证明我很自私,讨厌那种感觉,
看到靓女的时候瞄几眼就好了,不要流口水~

久别重逢的时候,记得给我一个拥抱,在我耳边说"我好想你......
我知道,我很任性,但既然你选择了和我在一起,你就应该学会包容我,能接受并指出我的不好,

我并不是一个自我为中心的人!
如果你觉得我哪方面不好可以说出来,但不可以忽略我;
我可以忍受你直接说不爱我,但是我讨厌你对我忽冷忽热;

我是人,有感觉,也有脾气,不要说我不喜欢听的话,要是我沉默了,那代表我不想再谈论那个话题,那么请你停止说.

我知道我脾气真的不好,但是要是你受不了,你可以同我说;
如果我选择了你,证明我是真的爱你,所以如果我有不好的地方,你也要说出来.
两个人在一起,就要相互信任,你可以有自己的私人空间,但是不可以欺骗我~

happy CNY!

yup, as usual, new year is the same every year. same question and same answer. LOL.
well, perhaps this year is a little different. (:

have been meeting tk aka dalang many days. LOL. ya, we are just like a couple, stick like superglue. that is because my semester havent started, thats y i have plenty of time. lol. Moreover, he is under my probation, so i have to observe him carefully so that I can understand him more and decide whether i should accept him. For now, he is still acceptable. Somehow i feel that he is quite similar as fernando. HAHA. surprisingly, my mom said the same thing. LOL.

well..i just have to walk one step see one step. hopefully, he is the one. (:

Just when I thought its difficult for me to have feelings for other guys..tk appear.

He is a very nice guy...for now. Idk how will he be like in future. All I can say is that I can feel his sincerity. He is cute, sensitive, sometimes sainai, sometimes dananren. But like what Cherie told me, don't be so fast. Yes. I totally agree on that. If not it will end up like me and Martin. Short aimei period, no honeymoon, many quarrels, many tears, break up.

I'm looking for someone who can spend my whole life with, someone who can take care of me and share happiness tgt. I was blinded with love previously, not again this time. Observe, observe!

I never regret being tgt with Martin. He taught me alot. Quoted from his words, you will not know how good the bf is if ur ex is not bad. Thanks for letting me realize how good other guys are, and how to appreciate what they did for me. In addition, he made me realize that I could actually love blindly without being fussy.

I swear I'm going remain like this. Throw away my unreasonableness, my princess attitude, my pickiness because I actually could do it.

2012, edyna become a better person. (:

And yes, tk is under my probation (: